You are on a deeply interesting journey, taking you far beyond what words can express.
Along the way, you may encounter doctrines whose study will bring benefits, or teachers who offer valuable counsel, but there is no need to depend only on them.
The approach you are following has nothing to do with yes and no, pro and con, or with being perfect.
What really matters is knowing itself—and this deeper knowing does not depend on identity.
Gesture of Great Love